Getting to Sleep

I couldn't fall asleep again last night. Too many thoughts still running through my head. The sun starts rising at about 4 in the morning, maybe a little earlier. I tried to coax myself to sleep last night with warm whiskey. It didn't work. When I finally woke up my mouth was dry.

What finally calmed me down? Admitting to myself that my best friend is probably right. T hat he's no good for me and never has been and that I should leave. I know she's right. He's probably not worth the pain. But part of me feels like that's the easy way. Just wash my hands of him and move on. But who knows... I really hope that he's just scared